New people!! new person, old person!! San Francisco !!! Pastries!!

I am disgusted by the things i do to try to not feel. To try and fill the void that I have carved for myself.
Emphasis on MYSELF. Don't feel empathy, i did this. I am disgusting, but these people know that and are encouraged to talk to me [gone!]. I have a new friend (well, technically we talked b4 that but it was briefly nd i dont think he remembers) He lives nearby, we may meet at some point- I think i'm afraid? I probably should be?? More so excited??? Very excited !!! There's other people too, but one can only talk to me on weekdays, one is rlly overbearing and the others are silly xp

Either way, they're all shallow, and most definitely the worse option, but i would rather destroy my psyche than not. i have always been partial to self destruction

I WAS IN SAN FRANSISCO FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS IT WAS SO FUN !!! On the first day- the day we got there I had a bomb ass street food hotdog, nothing else really happened that day tho xp,, The next day we went to japantown!! really fucking fun, we didnt really eat much because hotel breakfast goes hard but the shops were really neat and i got many trinkets. ESPECIALLYY!!! The gachapon shop, I GOT A SPLATOON GACHAPON!!! AND!!! I LITERALY PULLED THE DUDE I WNATED I AM SO HAAPPYYYYYYYYYY (i'll put pics later) omg i also really wanted to try takoyaki but i just.. wasnt hungry. lots of other stuff was there too, i'll probably write more in depth later to flush down the doomer shit i keep writing,, sorry. DX

THERE IS THIS FUCKING BAKERY IN SAN CARLOOS THAT WE GO TO ON THE WAY TO AND FROM SF AND IT"S SO FUCKING GOOD, YPU PICK YOUR OWN PASTRIES AND IT"S ALL SO CUTESEY AND AESTHETIC AND IT'S SO. YUMMY. ESPECIALLY THE GARLIC BREAD AND THE LITTLE FRUIT TART PASTRIES!?!?!?!?!? OMG